immunity.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

I've told myself at the beginning of the year that I'm not going to have any expectations when it comes to other people. I should really stick to that. I thought things were going differently. I was a fool to believe that they were. But it doesn't phase me because I've been let down and burned too many times in the past to make something like this bring me down again. I refuse to let it happen.

It's a good thing I didn't let down my guard. I'd be fucked if I did; back to that miserable feeling of not being wanted, and not being "good enough". I'm better than that. I deserve better than that. And waiting around hoping that something could come from this is not working for me. It's quite annoying and I'm fed up with being in this twisted cycle.

If you can't step up your game. I'm done. I'd rather not waste my time giving you another chance when there could be something or someone better for me out there. You said you've changed.. please prove it to me so I don't feel like a fool for thinking you have.

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"Be the change you want to see in this world."

-- Mahatma Ghandi


clean slate.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

well, somewhat of a clean slate.

Midterms are done.
I did a mediocre job and that's a fact.
It feels like I took on more than I could handle after taking a semester off.
I need to step up my 'game' after trying to relax during this coming week.
Thank God for SPRING BREAK!
I'm not disappointed that I'm not going anywhere special to party it up.
To be honest, I'm glad that I'll be able to just stay home, relax a little bit, and catch up/get ahead with some school work.
I'm gonna give myself a little slap on the face and kick on the tush to get myself in gear.
I can't keep screwing up every semester. I want to graduate next year, damnit!
Yep, I never learn. PROCRASTINATION'S A BITCH and the only way to prevent myself from procrastinating during the second half of the semester is to cut off all distractions and just focus.

Limitations with my time online, chatting, and recreational/social events.
This sucks major balls!

I can't wait for summer.

"shooting" in CSUN dorms? really?

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

So, I just received an email from the president of CSUN regarding a supposed shooting in the dorms last night. Of course, the media spun the facts around making this an even more drastic matter than it really was. Shooting or no shooting, I'm kind of glad I don't live on campus. Those poor freshmen and sophomores were probably scared shitless after having to evacuate in the middle of the night.

Here's the email:


An incident arising from an interpersonal dispute involving several individuals occurred late last night in the University Park Residence Halls. Since the matter has been widely, but inaccurately, reported in the local media, I wanted to share with you the facts as we know them, based on information gathered at the scene by University Police. They are as follows:

* Two students were threatened by one or more individuals after a dispute involving issues under investigation;

* A gun was brandished during the incident, but no shots were fired at any time;

* Immediately upon being notified, University Police responded to the location and secured the area;

* LAPD provided assistance, including a surveillance helicopter;

* University Police, dispatch officers, and residence hall staff advised students to remain in their rooms as the area was searched;

* Approximately 45 minutes after the first call to University Police, officers were able to confirm that the suspects were no longer in the area and there was no further threat;

* Residence hall staff, working in conjunction with University Police, are implementing a series of measures intended to enhance resident safety;

* The investigation continues at this time.

We have attempted to correct the factual inaccuracies that have been reported on local radio and television concerning this incident.

Follow-up: As I Am

Friday, March 7, 2008

Alicia Keys is on tour and will be performing at the Honda Center on May 4th and Staples Center on May 5th!!
Dammit, I wish I was working right now. Ugh.

Fan Club pre-sale started today.

Damn you Ticketmaster for taunting me.

le sigh.

As I Am.

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Her album's been out for quite a few months but I just got it this week... and I love it. I've been a fan of Alicia Keys from the very beginning. I think her new album has to be the best so far.

I really like this song:

Superwoman

Everywhere I'm turning
Nothing seems complete
I stand up and I'm searching
For the better part of me
I hang my head from sorrow
Slave to humanity
I wear it on my shoulders
Gotta find the strength in me

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I'm a Superwoman

For all the mothers fighting
For better days to come
And all my women, all my women sitting here trying
To come home before the sun
And all my sisters
Coming together
Say yes I will
Yes I can

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I'm a Superwoman

When I'm breaking down
And I can't be found
And I start to get weak
Cause no one knows
Me underneath these clothes
But I can fly
We can fly, Oooohh

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I'm a Superwoman
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p.s. Yes, she references the "All-American Hero"... but the song has a good message.
I'm still a fan of the Dark Knight, hands down. Hahaha!
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"Just keep playing the game," they say.
Indeed, that is what I shall do.