I'm in over my head.

I just realized exactly HOW MUCH work I have to do this weekend.
I shouldn't panic too much since it's only Friday.
One thing at a time I suppose.

Things to tackle this weekend:

Friday - SOCIOLOGY: articles, discussion board responses, and text book readings.
Saturday - BUDDHISM: text book chapters, discussion board responses, and study guide questions
Sunday - AS.AM.Hist: study guide for Midterm #1


Looks possible. I just need to limit my distractions.
Alright, time to stop thinking about all of it and just do it.

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maybe I should pass on tonight... considering all the things I have to do. hmm...

waterworks.

I'll Be There For You by Bon Jovi

STUPID SONG MADE ME CRY! Hmph.

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Ugh. WHY?! Why must I let my emotions get the best of me?

I was doing fine.

Why did you have to come back into my life NOW?

I thought it wouldn't phase me. That I could just use the whole 'cold shoulder' routine and get back to my own merry way. But it seems like it's backfiring on me. I know I should continue to be strong and resist but my gut feeling stirs me the opposite direction. I wouldn't normally be so forgiving of someone who hurt me so drastically, and I know I'm a fool if I decide to go back that direction. I don't want to back track. I want to move forward without having to look back.

But maybe looking back will help me move forward?

I can't ignore the fact that there's still unfinished business in my past that I haven't tried to deal with. I just tucked it underneath the piles of things I want/need to do, obviously so I can forget about it. Surprisingly enough, that "problem" resurfaced and I am absolutely torn.

Do I keep resisting? Do I continue to do what I'm doing, ignore my gut feeling, and just keep convincing myself with the logical thing to do? Or, do I give in? Do I find a way to make room for a small possibility of change and a second chance to see what could be? Either way, my guard is not coming down unless I know for sure what this is.

I'm confused.


Ugh. Why now.

OVERly under CONFIDENT

Ever study so much for an exam that you believed you were ready.. but when you get to take the exam, you totally forget everything and end up practically failing your first test in the class??

Yep. Happened to me this morning.

I was too anxious with trying to study things from the textbook that I didn't leave anytime to review my lecture notes. Stupid mistake, especially since Dr. Sergi did say we were going to be tested on 80% if the lecture notes. BLAH. Damn you, 8a.m. class!!

And to make matters worse, I get to my car and see a damn parking ticket on my window. Why?! Because the day pass I put on the dashboard was upside-down. (That's what I get for having to rush to class to take my exam, I guess.) Normally, I wouldn't complain because I am guilty of re-using day passes to avoid paying $5 that day but this time I actually bought a day pass. And to find that stupid ticket on my car just pissed me off. So, I had to go to the Parking and Transportation services building to appeal the damn ticket, which will take 5 weeks to process.

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On top of that, I'm am extremely exhausted and have a ton of things to do.
Why can't you keep up, body?!

Oh well, enough complaining from me -- just gotta deal, right?

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Mare's on temporary hiatus as of now.
Make sure you check on me to see if I'm still breathing.